ECONOMY IS BAD

haix..im super stress right now..
the bad economy is getting onto me..
my mom these few days keep saying how bad the business is and i can't help but feeling worried and helpless..

i feel very useless not doing anything for them..
i want to go back and help them run the business
although i am not much of a help as i dont have any knowledge..
and talking about business, makes me regret going to smu..its only like 1.5 years more i can take my 2nd major in business..
but for now i am useless..

i know what i can do as a daughter is just study hard..
but i really REALLY envy people who pay their school fees with their own savings
i mean its really amazing dont you think?
they are all so young yet they (almost) dont depend on their parents anymore..

i just realize another thing. i live by rules.
i feel contented being controlled. funny isnt it?
i tink i wont know what to do if i dont have rules to follow.
guess it is because i have been living with rules ever since i start learning to walk.
and eventhough now i can choose not to follow rules, i can't.
i feel handicap without them, and i wont enjoy my freedom
o.O

i pity myself.
lol

gotta go back to studying,ciao!
xoxo, vans