the truth?

SIGHH...

Shelly is forcing me to tell Marion the truth.

The truth about why so many people dont like her.

because i confide in her how much i am getting more and more annoyed by her. mainly because she talks to me in skype EVERYDAY saying unnecessary things. fine, i know that i also talk unnecessary stuff with my friends, but with her its tiring and annoying. she complains mostly and sometimes when my response is plain "hahaha", she said "its not funny."

=.=

i dont enjoy having convo with her at all and as much as i can, i avoid replying her.

why is she talking to me so often??
cos she doesnt have any other frens!
the only 2 contacts in her skype is me and her mom.
so basically when her mom is not replying, i become the victim.

I think she has social issues.
she realise that she does some things that ppl dont like, but she said she cannot change it.

people only find her tolarable and funny for a short period of time. after that, they are glad that she is away from them.
gave u an example, this "good friend" of hers in new zealand, where she stayed 4 or 6 months before, they are writing each other emails. as time goes by, she writes longer and the fren writes shorter. she writes like 5 pages long of email, only to have her fren replied 5 sentences.

why cant she get the message??

shelly said since im her only fren in school, i should help her and tell her the truth.

but i swear i am so bad at doing that. >.<


Btw, changing topic, ytd i feel so bad to shelly.
she was soooooo drunk in the club but she keep asking "which drink makes u higher? which drink makes u very high? i want to drink i want to drink." when she is sooo wasted already.

so i tell her "how drunk do u wanna be?? so drunk that strangers can fuck you??no? so please stop drinking now."

GOSH.

it was harsh. but i had to do it, she couldnt understand much at that stage.

i apologized to her today >.<


u noe my sis once said, its so fun looking at people getting drunk. but its not my cup of tea. fine, yes they are more relaxed and ppl who are usually rigid can actually be fun, but beyond that, i gave up. marion and shelly's problem when they get drunk, they TALK NON-STOP.
I insist, NON STOP.some girls go lesbian and start kissing other girls.

and i think they are not the worst.

not gonna happen

okay seriously i cant stand her anymore.

me and her roomate next year?? NOT GONNA HAPPEN.

I am talking about Marion of course.

Man, she woke me up and come on, when u accidentally woke someone up from their nice undisturb sleep what shoud u do? apolgize and hang up, if u have some common sense.

her?

my phone rings *huuu..yea yea..no no...fuck what i said..it dont mean shit now..*
i picked up. her number on caller id.

me:"halo?"
she:"hey marion here. what time do we have to report back to school?"
me: (look at the clock. its 3.42 pm) "quarter to 5."
she:"but its now."
me:(look again at the clock. making sure its not my eye who is deceiving.)" no its only quarter to 4 now."
she:"ahh..ya I purposely wake u up an hour earlier to check if everything alright."
me:GRRRRR wtf ( of course i dont say it)
she:"did i wake u up?"
me:"yes."
she:"ah..so sorry.im sorry for this."
me:"ya..see you bye."
she:"okay im sorry for this."
me:"its okay.bye."
*hung up*

seriously i HATE being disturbed when i sleep, just look at the convo above there are few unnecessary sentences which if she cuts down i might still continue to sleep. but now i am too upset so I cant sleep anymore. Next year, if i continue to keep quiet and allow her to be my roommate i might kill her when she sleeps.

so i think to avoid me being a cold blooded killer, I am gonna live off campus next year.
Hopefully I will find one room. if not I share a house with shelly and jenny, which is 1000 times better of course. both options save money and prevent unwanted circumstances with me and marion.

i really neeed to find that house.

miss home

for the first time in the last 7 years, i miss home.

A moment of a lifetime

I could not even seriously convey my happiness through words.
My friends made so much surprises and I ALMOST had to cry.
It has only been 4 months here but they treat me so well like I have known them forever.

Never know that europeans can be so sweet as well =x

So it started out with dinner in Ala Carte.
the fine dining restaurant in our school where the food is free but u have to pay the wine.
Invited 14 of them in total:
Anna, Shelly, Jenny, Florian, Poom, Alena, JT, Khue, Marion, Charlene, 4 thai ppl: Gam (my roomate), Fame (Gam's bf), Steve and John.
Anna Shelly Jenny me in 1 table,
Florian Poom Alena in another. (Poom and Alena are tgt)
JT was with Khue, Marion and Charlene
and yea the rest for the Thai ppl.

Food wasnt especially good and all our tables are separated to we cant reay talk across. But I could jump here and there taking pics with them ^^
and another good thing was the waitress and waitresses are ALL my classmates! (the other half..for we have to serve ala carte for lunch so they serve alacare dinner) thats why u will see some of them wearing waitressing uniforms.
^^

we stayed to eat for like 2 hours and then when we finished eating suddenly they came with a cake! A chocolate one..and it was so good but I had not time to eat cos I had eaten so muchh... >.<

and then i treat them wines! i dont really like wine so in our table mainly anna had to finish it..which made her vomit so much today :( feel so badd..

after that we left to go to my and anna's room where all the party started. but jenny dragged me to CDV first to take glasses to drink, and guess what when i came back..
ANOTHER CAKEEE
GOODnesss! and it was soooo beautiful and nice too but AGAIN i couldnt eat it!!! mannn i hate myselfff..

We played really loud musics till 10pm, where the security came and scolded us. Shelly was so cute. She tried to bribe the secuirty guards with cake!! HAHAHAHAH XD

well sadly it din work. wth, so we went down to lobby, drink and chill..and then around 11 secuirty came again and shoo us off. I was feeling so sad this time, cos I dont want it to end so fasttt T_T

So we went to CDV to chill there, bringing our own drinks and got scolded again. ( cos cdv sell their own drink). so we came outside and talked there. Finally Isabel suggested we should go to haunted house. so we went. total we have 3 cars and like 25 people??
I was so scared at first but in reality it was nothing =.=
just an empty house where nobody lives anymore. The boys tried to do anything possible. climb, shout, ring the bells, ALMOST breaking in. but the whole place was locked out.
But the situation is really funny though, and while the boys are having fun, the girls were chatting and laughing, and some people played football. And its around 12 midnight. HAHA

The atmosphere was SOOOO good, with chilled wind and everybody relax. love itttt

We stayed there for approximatey 45 minutes and then we went back to the car (of cos loud music in the car) and we stopped at a forest. I have no clue whose idea was it, but it was SO freaking funny and fun to walk in heels in the forest where u practically see nothing. Luckily I ahd Guido holding on to me, so I dont fall. and on the way back there was Tim. I am so lucky. HAHA.

So we walked up the forest and ended up on top of some mountain where we could see all the lightings of Bluche (our town). It was sooo prettyyy but it was fucking cold and raining that I ended up wanting to go home.
We drove back with Isabel's car and was shocked when florian called ISabel and said Jean Marc is missing. I was like "noooo please nothing happen to himm..it would be my fault cos its my bdayy..'

and 10 mins later they called to say they found him.
and guess what, this morning i found out it was all jokes. =.=

Man, I think I left out A LOT of funny details cos I was so enjoying myself.
I swear this is one of the best bday celeb everrrrrrr

NB: They made me letter with reallly really sweet notes with money inside (which i feel like an ang pow. hahaha. ) and gave me a MARTINI rosso. (martini is the best vermouth i swear.)
Jean Marc gave me a rose wine which Tim chucked the whole bottle. lol.

These are what they said:
Florian: "Dear Vanessa, I wish you all the best and I hope you stay like you are. Happy birthday."
Charlene:"Hope your day goes extremely well and keep on smiling. Love Charlene."
Khue:"Vanessa! I have something for you in the other card. So just wait and see! :)"
JT:"Dear Melissa, hope you got taller every year." (wtf.=.=)
Marion:"Dear Melissa, but actually Vanessa (they kept calling me Melissa for the fun of it. cos in the class register it is Melissa, and I had to say "sir..its actually Vanessa" like for every class=.=_
I know it isnt easy moment to get old but I promise you it will also happen to the amazing French girl. (=.=)"
Poom and Alena:"I am writing you this to warn you to not get drunk. You go wild when you are drunk (wild grandma) Hope your year goes well. Find a man. And yeah!! Alena just hit me for saying the grandma thing. Hope you'll be happy. Find a man get marry have child blar blar blar.Anyway Happy birthday, Poom and Alena love u lot!!"
Anna:" My dear Schmoopsipoopsi, for your birthday I wish you all the best and hope that all yur dreams for the future come true!! I'm very thankful to get to know you and have you as my roomi!! I am looking forward to spend my time here with you and hopefully a lot longer. Love you."

and Jenny and Shelly made me videos on fb.
How sweet can they be?? T__T

I am so so blessed. Thanks GOD.

when it gets too much

I feel kinda bad to Marion these few days, I am kinda ignoring her..

I don't know.. she did not do anything wrong..but she is getting on my nerve lately..
She talks. She talks WAYYYYYYYYYYYY TOOO MUCHHHHHHHH

okay. u might think.
so she talks. whats wrong?
Imagine this:

wake up in the morning. she calls me :" meet u for breakfast?"
okay. shelly, jenny and hansol came to.
listen to her blah blah blah about some people that disturb her sleep ytd, of cos some of the things she said are pretty funny. so i listened, and laughed.

Then.
go to class.
no more shelly and jenny.
she talks and talks, until the class started.
in class it is not so bad, she doesnt talk much because she wants to concentrate.
finally some peace.
but wait. she suddenly makes comment about the teacher. or
"look at richard. look at what he is doing. he is so retarded.hahaha" blah blah blahh

and more classes. and more complaints. and more blah blah blah.

even during dinner or STUDY TIME, she never gives me any quiet time.
AT ALL.

U think this is bad??
Imagine having her still in my room, for SATURDAY and SUNDAY.
wanna have a nice lazy afternoon enjoying the weather, or sleeping?
forget it.
once she came to my room. she will stand by the window and start her 2 hours scrutinization of people.
"look at her. look at him. oh how "fashionable". hahaha. vanesssaaaa come hereeeee look at that weird girl. OH MY GOD."

OMG myself.
last time i liked her very much. of course, she is funny, very sociable and very nice to me. the only thing that i dont like at first was that she is very sarcastic. like "yea..indonesians..so stupid..so slow.."
but i didnt mind after a while, cos she does it to evry body and I know she does not mean it.

after 4 months, I finally realize why NOT many people like her.
People who just got to know her, thinks "omg she is so funnyyy.."
yea..after 4 months x 30 days x 16 hours (i alr put 8 hours off for sleeping since we are not in the same room) = 1920 hours, it is not fucking funny anymoreee

she just cant shut it up i swear.

and its not like she doesnt know that she talks so much.
ssssssssoooooooooooo many peoople tell her.
"marion, has ur throat ever hurt from talking?"
"marion, has u stopped for breathing in the last 30 mins?"
"oohhh...finally we dont have to sit with marion. we can have some peace now.haha"

BUT
NONE of it worksssss!!

and u noe wads best:
the "intelligent" me has chosen to stay w her as roomate for the full next year!!
HALLELUYAAAAAA
i could kill myself. and when people heard i MADE that decision, they look at me seriously and say "its not that we dont like her..but i think u shld reconsider.."

so these few days i just kinda "run away" from her..she calls i dont pick up..i come to class earlier so i can choose to sit with other people, and i sit lunch w other ppl as well..

I feel really bad about this..but I am super super tired of hearing all the nonsense she said. excuse me, but I am human too.

I have put up with her really nicely for these 4 months, even Anna said she couldnt bear if she was me. So yeah.

NOW, what the heck should i do???
its Too mean if i just keep running away from her, no??

can someone suggest stg? =((